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Enraged and Heartbroken

I cannot take this anymore.

My mom just had the nerve to bitch at me about being up this late when I normally stay up this late and my body's perfectly satisfied with the amount of sleep I get.

I was just trying to help her by taking out trash and cleaning dirty dishes and do something nice for her...what do I get? Yelled at for waking her up and trying to help her by saving her work.
I'm not gonna lie, it hurts...it hurts a lot. I'm definitely heartbroken.

I swear if this keeps up, I'm gonna get so mad that I'm gonna go on an anger rampage...I've tried to let it subside, but I'm having a hard time with that.

For example, I've heard from unknown sources and read a couple emails and letters my mom has written. She has said that she wants to "hit me on the head with a frying pan," and do everything in her power to keep me from doing the Passion Play and the Disney Internship audition.

I cannot believe it...it just makes me wanna vomit. I would think of all people, my mom would support me acting and in the things I love to do, but I was so wrong that it just breaks my heart in a million pieces.

She's already gotten people on her side to try not to side with me except my dad...maybe there's a light at the end of my tunnel, but I'm doubting it.
I can't really talk to him because knowing how he'd react, he would definitely run off and tell mom and we'd get in another screaming fight about it.

But I do stand by saying this: I don't need my parents support, it would be nice to have, if they won't support me, fine. I have my friends' support and that matters to me.

Something embarrassing that I've wanted to mention for so long...I feel like my friends are more family than my real family has ever been and I'm more close to them.

I'm sorry for rambling on, but it's 4:30 and I can't call anyone, so I really needed to vent on here...like usual. I'm sorry.

I just can't believe everything I've seen and heard for the past 2 days.

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To Do Or Not To Do...I need help and suggestions, PLEASE!!!!!!

I've been put in a pretty difficult situation where I don't know what to do.

I really want to do the Passion Play this spring, but yet, my mom's trying to discourage me from something I want really bad...only because it runs during spring break and potentially the time where I'll audition for the Disney Internship.

I just feel like she's just doing everything to make sure I don't do it cause of her worry that I won't be able to balance it with 18 credits, which include Acclamation, Puppets, and having to be involved in the production aspect at Messiah.I think I can balance all that, but I just feel like my mom's totally against me...she's saying it's got "bad idea" written all over it.

I really don't give a rats ass what she thinks, really...I want to do it really badly. I just want to be able to do it and audition for the Disney Internship. The only problem is I don't know when the auditions dates and locations are because they won't be posted til Febuary.

What do I do? I want to do the Passion Play, but I certainly don't want to miss my opportunity to work at the place I've always wanted to work and just leave my dream behind.I'm so beat up from thinking about it that I don't know what's what or what's the best thing to do.I'm making the decision, I'm not gonna do something just cause my mom says it's the right thing to do at the time...I'm gonna be the judge of it. I will not be told by her that I have to give it up and can't do the show...I will make that decision.

P.S. Does anyone know if they keep the dorms open during spring break? If they don't...I need someplace to stay during break if I do the Passion Play.I need all the feedback and help I can get.

Thanx.

Too Late

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